Keep Calm and Find Mickey

I hadn't posted anything about Mickey Shunick's disappearance on here yet, because I know not many people outisde of my friends read my blog and I've been keeping them all up to date via facebook.  However, today for some reason, has been harder than some others.  That's how it's been for the past three weeks.  When people ask how I am, I always answer mas o menos, for me, that describes better how I'm feeling than anything I could say in English.  I was also not posting anything, because I have been trying to keep this blog from being incredibly personal, I understand that it is full of my personal projects and personal opinions but I'm not going to sit here and cry about anything.  Except today I might.  I've been following Mickey's disappearance as closely as possible from the beginning, she is a good friend of mine.  In fact, we were on the way to being best friends.  We had both been telling Brettly Wilson, the last person to see her, for several months that we were going to be best friends once they moved to New Orleans.  I am a crazy workaholic and was unable to go to Lafayette until a couple days last week.  My visit to Lafayette was calming in a way, I felt like I was doing more, even though I've been told I have been doing a lot even in New Orleans.  Upon arriving back in New Orleans, plenty of other downer stuff happened that affected my mood, but the calming of my Lafayette visit made me more prepared to deal with everything.  I would even say over this past weekend, I was beginning to feel normal again. My sex drive was back, my appetite, I was sleeping somewhat better.  Then last night happened, I couldn't sleep. I felt manic but listless.  I spent a good bit of this morning crying at work.  The only thing that's really keeping me calm this morning has been listening to Givers. They remind me of home and they remind me of the night I met Mickey.  I don't really know where I'm trying to go with this post.  I guess I just wanted to explain to everyone why I haven't been very productive lately.  I had a lot of plans that were going to go into this blog since my last post, but Mickey's disappearance has really shooken me up, like it has many others.  It's somewhat selfish, but I want her home again so I can be productive again.  So I can feel normal again.  Without her, I don't know if I'll ever feel normal again, I'm sure I'll get used to it at some point and figure out a way to make myself be productive instead of just functional but who knows when that will be.

All I can do right now is remind myself to Keep Calm and Find Mickey.

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